grown up hip hop.

i luv this vid.
everything from the cinematography
to the style
the women(alicia is perfect)
the pad
the fitz(commons suit and beard is the dopeness, i NEED that look!)
the story(i've LIVED this song AND vid, right ape?)
this year has been awesome for music, thank u kanye. u made it cool to be a
damn grown-up.

"dont let the world change your mind"-maurice

ive always looked at life from the eyes of a naive, innocent child. ignorant to the inevitable let downs, hardships, and tribulations that right next to death and taxes are gaurenteed in life. for so long it served me well.. the take it in stride view i call it.
bad break at work<<<ruff goin witha chick<<<billz bustin me like crazy<<<so on and so on.. basically it was all done to keep a smile on my face and some faux peace in my life. stress and i dont get along too well so instead of deal with it, my function was to work AROUND it to avoid as much as possible till it was UNAVOIDABLE. i think in the last couple of years of my life its been brought to my attention just how self destructive that thinking kan be.
Goin with the flow, just getting by, not wanting to rock the boat, sacrificing my feelings and wants for others has all led to my spirit being dampened and my heart being broken. so many women think that i have no feelings and my heart is as cold as ice. but the truth is, the self inflicted heartbreak that ive endured is greater than ANY break up will ever be.. so much stuff thats happened in MY life hasnt been on MY terms.. this is really the first time in my 28 years that ive truly taken ownership of this self abandonment. its like i've let me down for so long.. ima make it up to myself tho, i have to.

songs of 07'

despite the fact that theres over two months worth of new tunes left to be released this year, including jays' american gangsta joint and nas' nigga album.. after stubling on madlibs "masala" i've been inspired to list teh joints that shook my soul this year.. i'll append when/if needed..

-madlib-masala
-game-why u hate the game
-kanye-i wonder
flashing lights
-coko-endow me
-tpain-buy u a drank remix
-pete rock-we roll
-sa-ra-do me gurl
tracy
and if
sweet sour u
hollywood
-jill scott-crown royal
whenever ur around
-common-southside
-88 keys-milf
-nas-still dreaming
-james pants-ka$h
-9th wonder-saved
-jlive-practice
-consequence-uncle raheim
-50 cent-smile
-timbaland-miscommunication
-prince-somewhere on earth
future baby mama
-mos def-perfect timing
-amy winehouse-take the box
fuck me pumps
in my bed