the virtue that is foresight...

today my newfound spiritual advisor Joel Osteen gave an awesome sermon/conversation that really struck a chord with me. i can actually count on him for this. whenever i turn on his lakewood church service @10am on fox(break me off some of that tithing scratch for the free promo joe!) he usual drops some ill gems on me that relates to what turns and twists my life happens to be taking at the time. today his message was tuffin it out thru the ruff times at the moment and keeping ur eyes on the prize. the ends DO justify the means.

having come to the decision that bmore isnt gonna be the place me and my fam make roots and memories, i've begun to feel stagnated. im all but sure my next stop WILL be denver(providing that during my visit i'll be able to find at least five black people within a 5 mile radius of where im staying..lol) but since i'm an adult with both child AND billz, pulling a "papa was a rollin stone" type move and just uprooting AINT an option. this huge step will take conpromise, research, patience and MAJOR planning and while i would normally just grit my teeth and bear it, i want to move NOW, "not now but RIGHT now!"-phife dawg

an awesome life for josh and i, frannie pie, beautiful scenery and the life i've always wanted for me and mines is just waiting for me but i the mean time i gotta deal with:

the beast

a hideous and dispicable creature that oddly has a penchant for sweater vests and sport jackets. gender still yet to be determined. had to cuss her ass out to finally get her off my back so while she now leaves me alone, her mere presence induces me to vomit.

moving outta 1409 eutaw

most of the memories suck but the view is VICIOUS!

goin back to random, CO-habitation for a year..
kinda symbolic tho since i'll more than likely be in the same area i moved to initially when i got to bmore..

my best bud

i want him to come with me. making it happen aint as easy tho. if i like it, HE'd LUV it. and i KNOW the climate out west would be waaay more nurturing that Pg county(IE-the BANE of my existence) luv that kid.

so much to do. probably bout a years worth of worrying, crucial decisions, and mental strain.. but if joel says it'll be aight in the end, i'll be aight.