so im doin it. im moving towards settling down. finding, building and making a home for me and mines. this wont be an over night process so its gonna take some patience and foresight but im up for it. as much as i luv this city, this isnt for me. i've wrestled with this for a lil less than a year now. and as much as i luv the city living aspect of bmore, i couldnt truly be happy and have a family here for the long haul. ill spent funds, corrupt and incompetent politicians, awful school system, and a staggering gap between the haves and havenots in this city discourages me to no end. but most of all. the plight of my people in this city is a national disgrace and eyesore. drugs, crime and low hs graduation rates have denegrated the fabric of a people historically strong and proud. North ave, Penn ave, greenmount ave, are just 3 of many streets here that serve as the WORST of what we have to offer as a people. open-air drug markets, prostitution, loitering, muggings, etc are sumthin i simply cannot get used to being around. and what sux the most is since i DO want SOME kinda diversity in my place of residence, in most cases u HAVE to live near these streets if u dont want to live around ALL white folks..
anyways.. i feel great about this decision. bmore has been a place where i've longed to live for SO long, anyone that remotely knows me can vouch for that. so for me to truly survey the city and decide it aint for me thru actually experiencing it, i feel like this chapter in my life can come to a close without regret or hindsight. i've "lived" as most older folks tell u to do to discourage u from gettin too serious in a relationship too early in life, relationships(good and bad), bar scene, party life(shout to jay!), etc but now im ready to have a LIFE.
ps-im in luv.
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